I know you are hurt,
I am hurt too.
It’s not your fault,
Its all on me.
I just didn’t control my excitement for you
And that scared you.
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Not very hopeful if any chance is left
But if this were my last letter to you,
I would say this..
I think in the short time we had, I have fallen for you
I know it is crazy
I understand that this much time is not enough to know someone
But love is blind they say and without logics.
So at this moment I don’t care how much sense this makes.
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I like your smile, your simplicity.
The vulnerability with which you speak
The nervousness that shows in your big eyes
That voice. That childlike curiosity.
Like the one I displayed when I was young
I also know, that with your antics I’ll get fed up after a while
But it will be fun to have experienced it whole
To irritate you and to get irritated with you
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Even though I am scared to shit that I would never find someone like you
I don’t want to hold any grudges against you
I’ve always been an happy ending person
Not very fond of the scenario where the soulmates meet only at the end of movie
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A part of me wants to vow you back
It thinks maybe you are just scared to realize your feelings
And maybe I should just chase you and keep chasing you till the time you say yes
But I don’t know if you would appreciate that
I don’t want to insult your intelligence just for my last try
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A part of me doesn’t want to draft this
As this is all manifesting
But then this is also testimony of how I felt for you
So if I end up not being with you, I can read this years later
And feel the purity then I am now feeling for you.
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I keep searching for avenues to reach you.
Somewhere stay relevant in your eyes
Maybe some turn of events happens and you miss me too
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