Breaking the closet


Essays / Monday, July 5th, 2021

I’ve always been an introvert as far as I can remember. But I don’t seem like an introvert when you meet me now. Inside that shy guy still prevails, but outside I display assertiveness. It took me lot of understanding of my behavior and lot of effort to mold my personality into what one may call as not obtrusively introvert.

I am not saying being introvert is a bad thing. First of all it’s not a choice. Also an introvert is often blessed with creativity and talents which don’t strike a normal human. Just that sometimes an introvert person gets in a loop where he is not exerting enough and then it turns into bitterness.

A lot of us get caught in that trap where we lock ourselves in our shells where no one can break our confidence. This way we protect ourselves but limit the range of our expressions. Maybe our creativity wants more exposure. Maybe we never explored how happy we would be when we could tell to the world how happy we are.

There is no right or wrong into this. I am not even sure if this behavior is displayed only by introverts and not by extroverts. We’ve heard stories of how people cry behind closed doors. I am just concerned by the fact where we purposely limit ourselves into shining bright because we are not mentally prepared to handle it. Such a waste. The thing that people most resent when they grow old is that they didn’t leave any impact on the world or they don’t have memories. By curtailing our emotions, we are preparing ourselves for that life.

The question now arises how to break the closet. How to set oneself free? The first step is to accept the shortcomings of not breaking the closet. That’s half the battle won. The second step is to challenge yourself in small small ways which induce small small wins which give you small small confidence. Before you know it, you start enjoying it. It’s like learning to ride a bicycle.

I don’t know why I am even writing this piece. I mean opening up or not opening up is a personal choice of people. Maybe it’s because I understand how difficult it is to adopt yourself to open up. And I realize how by being caught up by one self and not giving back to the world, we are doing disservice to ourselves and the world. And one of the most critical paths of being happy is to give back to world.

So whosoever is reading this, it’s important to understand one’s uniqueness and not to dim one’s light for the world. The world needs more light.

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