You keep looking at the phone

Hoping that she would text

The text never comes

The hope never dies

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You keep hoping despite

Her being indifferent to your feelings

What if she is just playing

Taking her time to decide

Maybe I was too aggressive

I pushed her to shell

It’s all my falut

Self doubt takes over

Common sense goes for a toss

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Memories flush of all the good times

When feelings felt real

Unperturbed by what interpretations either of us would make

There was no tagging to the bonding

But it gave all the respite

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Why would people not value such connections

Why would someone value worldly affirmations more than their happiness

And if someone is not even capable to make such an easy decision

Are they even the right choice

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And then everyone is different

Maybe this attitude pushed her away

Everything seems easy to you

You don’t delve into the intricacies

People need their time to decide

People care too much about their loved ones

Their feelings, their approvals

You don’t – Although you have your reasons sorted out

You know if you aren’t happy yourself no-matter what you do for others

It won’t translate into any happiness for either

But not everyone thinks the same way

So they need space and time to think

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So what do we do now?

Wait, till it becomes crushingly bad to bear any longer

For what love it is, that comes without cost

And what feelings are, that are not worth waiting for

Even though you are certain, your heart will break

Even though you are certain, your time will be wasted

But you’d choose to cling to that tiny hope

Because you are not looking to settle

You are looking for magic. 

Magic happens when people choose to believe

What seems highly improbable.