You feel the shivers running down your body

You can’t breathe properly

You can’t sleep properly

You can’t eat properly

You find it difficult to concentrate

Like a part of your body is torn away

 

You keep opening the messages

Keep stalking that person again and again

Talking in your mind, imagining conversations that would follow

You want to get angry, but you don’t because love overtakes

 

You want to help the other person

The other person doesn’t want to take your help

You want to help yourself by letting go

But the heart is hopeful. It desires.

 

When you come out of it, you realize

How shallow you became

How relieving it is to be out of it

How blindsighted you got

But you come out of it getting bruised somewhere

 

It becomes difficult to hold in desperation

The dimensions don’t match

You try being nice, you are seen as weak

You try to push hard, well that never works out

Just that once you’ve given enough, you feel exalted

No more qualms for not trying, you face defeat

It calms you.